Getting the hang of things...

"This life is a practice, not a perfect", I often love to whisper this to myself whenever I feel I'm not as good at something as I would like to be . Not sure where the quote originates but, it stands very true for so many areas of my life. Through the process of University, Internships, and well life ... we all try and find something we are good at. Something that maybe we are passionate about or at least enjoy as an everyday task. For me, when it comes to finding a job or purpose of sorts I always, follow passion. This led to people calling me indecisive or even flaky and I was ok with this because, if something doesn't feel right or excite me, I walk away. I am a creative who loves to move her body and sing how she feels. This is a part of me that I have left in the shadows for quite some time. Without finishing college I felt less than, I felt that I wasn't capable of creating my own life, my own job, or even my own happiness.

This is me. I'm sure to most, this seems like a happy girl. This was my first year ever at Bannaroo, a festival in Manchester, Tn that my sister and I have gone to religiously now and since then ( mind 2020 and 2021 ). Believe it or not this, was one of the hardest years of my life. I had lost my sweet Angel ( first dog ever ) of 14 years, my boyfriend of 4 and my dad who was a best friend to me had to move back to Texas and honestly, I was never present. I remember my sister and I having an argument over something so silly and it leading to a complete breakdown or breakthrough as I like to say. In this amazingly happy space I was so sad and where there were thousands of other people I felt alone.

This was a crucial year of my life and looking back now, I feel so sad for the girl who was so capable yet, thought she deserved so little. Today is 09.20.2021 and I was let go from my place of employment yesterday and for the first time ever this news, that would have destroyed me and depressed me now EXCITES THE HECK OUT OF ME! - sorry that was aggressive. I just want to say this to whom it may concern,

Dear you beautiful soul,

I am so proud of how strong you have been lately! I know some days are hard, are long, and make you want to give up. Even when those days occur, you find the strength to drink water, the strength to take care of the ones you love, and we couldn't be more thankful. Everyday is an opportunity to practice acts of self care and self love that will ultimately carry you to be the person you strive and dream to be. BE. DO. HAVE.

Love, Alex Groves